funny thing is, when i'm expected to be al grown up just lately i go into this kind of withdrawal state where i need to nurture myself ..... but i don't know how. i havent got that far with t yet...... usually i have to put on this act like i'm fine..... i've always managed it before but i'mstruggling withit right now .... and my daughter and hubby need me to be ok for the next couple of days .... i know i'll come back from Brighton in a real tizzy..... if i can just et through this ......

Jin/treasure xx please be with me grandad ......