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Old May 06, 2024, 07:15 PM
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Almost screamed at my family to, "LEAVE ME ALONE!!!!" because they were bothering me about going to the park with them. Luckily they FINALLY took the hint and left me alone and went without me. It's bad enough my husband was a menace all day, making sure I went out with him, making sure I went on a walk.

Honestly, I just want to lay in bed and curl up in a ball and not talk to anyone. I called my doctor's office about my anxiety and left a message on the nurse line, but don't expect to hear back until Wednesday (if even then for fukk's sake!) because that's the only day of the week my psychiatrist works.

I'm just so damn TIRED. And my anxiety is making me depressed and draining me of energy.

I'm an apple that's rotten at the core. I'm never going to get better. I'm a piece of shyt person. I suppose I deserve to suffer, when I really have nothing to suffer about in my life. I have a loving and supportive family, I have my creativity, I'm not starving, I have a nice place to live, we can afford me not working, so what is my problem?! The only thing not easy about my life is me. My family would be better off without me. I just drag my husband down and have probably traumatized my daughter.
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