So, when I call the detox place I'm supposed to be getting into, they tell me it's still going to be some weeks until I can get in. This is in direct contradiction to the staff at the ER who've told me I'm days away. I'm so confused and disoriented I don't know what to think or do. I recently went to the ER and they wanted to admit me, but admitting me would've meant spending 4-5 days sitting in that chair, without even a shower. I hate myself and I want to die. The wait for appropriate care feels like a ****ing lifetime when I'm struggling. I'm sorry for cursing.