Damn. I just wrote this post on how I feel so much better and I'm talking to my partner, but that's just gone...
there was like this rush when they asked if I'm okay, and I thought about how great I felt when I was with them at first, but now I'm back to feeling like I was about it a few days ago where I feel like I am just not worthy of love from them. Or anyone.
Maybe I just need to go back to hanging around people like me that KNOW life can be taken away in an instant so why bother needlessly suffering in the moment when there are ways to escape that.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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