Hello hello. I’m struggling so I asked my therapist if we could meet this week instead of next week. This is the first time I’ve requested an earlier appointment in probably three years. But the mood swings, paranoia, anger, irritability is too much to deal with and I need to talk to her. So I have an appointment with her in like 2 hours from now. I only slept 2 hours total. I’m skipping y my meds left and right. Because I started vaping THC and taking edibles 2 weeks ago and I keep convincing myself I can go off my meds and just use weed to cope instead since it doesn’t have as many bad side effects as meds. (I’ve been struggling longer than that so I don’t think it’s that that’s causing it) I’m not sure if I should bring up the THC vaping/edible use to my therapist or psychiatrist? I feel like it’s not relevant and it’s also completely legal here. But at the same time I don’t want to hide anything from them and be honest. I took an edible for the first time last night. It was a different experience than smoking. It hit me 2 hours after I took it and I had kind of a meltdown and panic attack where I was convinced I couldn’t breathe and that I was dying and that my brain was melting and I was afraid I’d go crazy or die. My boyfriend talked me through it though and it was fine after that. It was just a loooot stronger than I expected especially for such a low dose. But I’m still feeling it to an extant and I took it at 7:30pm last night and it’s a little after 2pm right now.