Had my appointment with my therapist today. We talked about my recent depression and how what triggered it was my mom (who I now rarely contact and have zero relationship with by choice) texting me and how it gave me flashbacks of past traumas I've had involving her (verbal abuse, gaslighting, manipulation) and other traumatic events I've experienced. I'm TERRIFIED of my mom. I love her because she's my mom but don't like her as a person. She's mean.
The things she's said to me have been ridiculous to awful. I don't want anything to do with my parents.
I just feel stupid because I'm a 41 year old woman who is still carrying around all this hurt and anger, to the point where it puts me in a deep depression for four days.
My therapist recommended I write my mom a letter. She said I don't have to send it to my mom if I don't want to, but that it may make me feel better to get it all out.
Has anyone else tried doing this? 🤔
Did it make you feel better?
My husband told me it would help me if I could try and forgive her too.