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Old May 11, 2024, 03:00 PM
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I've been depressed, at times severely, for at least 3 weeks. Getting better though: actually took a shower today and had a decent breakfast and lunch. Did a bit of tidying up too.

BPD going wild though, making an attempt at a relationship and it's bringing out a lot of that. Fear of abandonment+idealization+low self-worth=constantly wondering what they see in me->more fear of abandonment->some days catching myself saying some subtle stuff to see if they care or actually want to try, but also that probably lets them know I am afraid, insecure, and needy.

Straight up PTSD sx (not the complex trauma stuff that overlaps with BPD) are practically non-existent. I think all I needed was to get away from the places and people that were traumatizing at some point prior to or at the time.

Same Q. Including all comorbidities
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"What, are you crazy?"
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