Overall goal is to become a functioning member of society.

Gotta learn to take early warning signs seriously, take action, really assert myself and tell these providers I can go downhill fast. Maintaining relationships (steadily, not going through phases of feeling intensely attached, testing them and making them leave or ghosting them, saying sorry a few days or a few years later, repeat) with healthy people by becoming worthy of being cared about and not freaking out over little things. Not falling into the "fk-it" mentality with all my might, spiraling into a black hole.

Writing this down and bringing that in next week.