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Old Mar 03, 2005, 01:50 PM
vacantangel vacantangel is offline
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I'm glad that you're ok with that particular post. I told you what I went through here which inspired me writing it. Things get crazier and crazier and yes, I do think that things have settled down here now and hopefully I won't be drawn into anything again. Hopefully, I will be wiser to the agenda the next time than I was then. Actually, the first half of it is true, the part about God intervening. I'm well aware of the Footprints poem, in fact, an internet friend sent it to me back in 2002 when I was in the bleakest period of my depression which lasted several months. I had fallen off the edge and resided in the abyss for about at least 8 months. It was unbearable and I made several attempts on my life during that time. It's hard to have faith when you're mind feels like it's not yours for so long. It was during that 8 month period that I started to lose faith. I wish I could feel Him always working in my life but it's hard to imagine that God would want me to go through all this torment all the time or anyone else for that matter. But I do think there is a purpose for everything, even if it takes a long time for us to discover it and sometimes it is never revealed to us at all. The reason can also be for someone else and we may never find out that what we went through benefited another person.

Anyway, I'm glad that you understand the circumstances I was under when I posted that as well as other things at the same time. Sometimes what we're lead to believe is the truth at the time turns out not to be the truth after all. At least I know the real truth now and the real truth is a much better reality than what we were being lead to believe. A sick, selfish game was played but far more cleverly than one could suspect at the time. Putting the pieces together after the game, shone the true light on who was the true master of the game. Unfortunately, a number of people were hurt, including myself and are still paying the price by the one who lead the game.