(((Quay)))

I haven't been through the exact experience, and I'm only 19, almost 20, but until I was like 14.. 15 or something.. I wanted to be a boy. Especially when puberty hit (which was pretty early too) I was terrified of the changes in my body. I still hate the fact that I menstruate - it reminds me of the fact that I'm female even though I don't feel like one. I no longer want to be just male, either. I don't want to be of either gender - if I could just stop menstruating I would be perfectly happy!

I think I have kinda achieved my goal - sometimes kids come to me and ask if I'm a girl or a boy, thinking it will insult me but in fact I'm satisfied :P

Hope you come to a solution too! Your T can definitely be of great help to you.