You have no need to apologize for not posting a lot. I think a case manager or a lawyer would help you out with the disability process if that’s what you need. If you want to dip your toes into working after too there’s ticket to work which will let you keep your benefits while having an income for a bit.

I had a friend once that was a life coach and he makes miracles happen for some people and knows what will work and what won’t. He kinda treated me as a client which he wasn’t supposed to do and said he wouldn’t but it was helpful and his knowledge of the system and being friends with local EMS saved my life. It’s worth a try if you’re interested.