I can't even plan for today at this point because "how to survive" changes second by second. I have several things to do tomorrow and I don't even know how to put them in place because everything changes and things pop up last minute and, yeah, I can adapt to that, but if what I "plan" to do tomorrow changes and I never follow through on TOMORROW'S plan, how am I supposed to plan out weeks, months, or longer?
But if I don't, how am I supposed to find a place to live? How am I going to get (and hold down) a job? How do I even stick with the same treatment center for long enough to get help? I haven't even stayed in the same town/city for more than a year in what seems like forever.
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"I don't know what I'm looking for."
"Why not?"
"Because...because...I think it might be because if I knew I wouldn't be able to look for them."
"What, are you crazy?"
"It's a possibility I haven't ruled out yet,"
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