Sorry about the anxiety/panic attacks.... that is so rough, I know from experience.

Did you stop taking your anxiety/depression meds on your own or with the guidance of a doctor?

Have you heard of Dr. Claire Weekes book/audiobook "Hope and Help for Your Nerves"? I would highly recommend you check it out. There are also clips on YouTube, or you could try your library or AbeBooks | Shop for Books, Art & Collectibles for a secondhand copy.