I just want to be normal. I'm on the search for a new apartment. It's daunting seeing my list of needs. I'm worried my accomodations won't go through. I really want one place I saw but I have to get together the housing deposit. That's going to take me months and it'll be gone by then. I want to just give up. My husband is depressed so he's sleeping all the time. My dog is old so she's having trouble. My kid barely says hi to me. Nothing is getting done in the house. I asked to hire a cleaner and was met with opposition. I can only do so much. We need to get in order before Victoria's friends come. I wish we could pack and move right now. Vocational rehab isn't getting back to her. Everything is just a **** show. I hate being depressed.