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When I have positive feelings toward a woman, I feel intense shame..unyet when I see a man that I find attractive, I just take it in my stride and let myself enjoy thinking about him...

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I do this too. For me I think it is related to my previous conditioning that homosexuality is not acceptable. Then coupled with my continuing pattern of thought that I am not acceptable and "abnormal", it creates a perfect storm of negativity and fear. Intellectually I understand attraction, sexuality, gender identity are all separate things. We can identify ourselves or be judged by others on where we fit in each of these continuums. The hardest thing for me to remain conscious of is that where ever I am its is just a variation of normal.

Mouse I think it is great that you are open to exploring this in yourself and brave enough to share your thoughts with your T.