@Blueberrybook - I would have been fine with the breathing tube if I had some sort of recollection of what happened. My last memory was going into the ER via ambulance then I completely blacked out. I think I remember being tied to a gurney and screaming, but that's it. Apparently I became extremely difficult in the ER. At least, that's what a nurse told my husband, and I choked on activated charcoal and stopped breathing and they had to suction charcoal out of my lungs. I vaguely remember my husband visiting me in the ICU before they woke me upn and squeezing his hand.

Sorry your medical surgery was so awful. I regret my hernia repair surgery. I should have just dealt with it! Now I have to deal with this stupid mesh inside me and I gained fifty pounds in ten months!. Fukking surgery. Stoooopid me. Pisses me off. It was so painful and I've finally just healed enough to exercise again!