I showed my mom pictures of me when I was 160 pounds. She said. Wow, you look like your about to collaspe. I did look too skinny and I was getting a ton of crap from in in therapy. So I re did my weight loss goal a bit so I won't look quite like a skeleton again. Or like Elliot Page.

Today I don't feel good. I just woke up feeling like I was going to pass out. I think I'm starting to get better although I'm still dizzy.

That girl I know whos faking dying now says she has 6 months to live. Sure Jan. How does someone fool the medical system like that? I truly don't get it. I've been getting blown off for about a year with my mom sticking up for me while people who fake stuff on their own get all kinds of stuff.

Ugh now I feel all emotional and nauseated. Gonna go shoot myself in the stomach with testosterone to see if that helps my moods at all. Its Wednesday.

I just threw up my morning meds and ensure. My stomach feels better. Anxiety still sucks

I fell back asleep for 1.5 hours and now I feel pretty good.