Dear T,

I'm sitting here, crying about a couch. I know it's not literally the couch, but what it symbolizes. You're taking away my literal seat, before I'm ready. I imagine it's about loss of control, feeling powerless. I hope you can move a chair near to where I sit on it, like you said.

I did feel very connected at times today, which meant a lot. Including the whole process of my taking photos and the chatting and joking during that. And when you seemed emotional when I was talking about D at the end. I know you care, probably pretty deeply. And that's very meaningful to me. The boundaries, the lack of control, the not knowing you like I wish I could--like we discussed today--that's all just very hard. I'm trying my best to appreciate what I do have with you.

Love,
LT