You're right. I'm an addict; I shouldn't be fking around with anything. I'm going to not waste what I have left then do some therapeutic microdosing maybe even to prep for actual psychotherapy so I'm more open with her, maybe with someone trusted that doesn't get paid just to tell me to use coping skills and come up with crisis plans. I know it's "an illegal substance," but I have NEVER met someone who abuses mushrooms. I've even met people who go into it wanting to gain insight and perspective and a plan to improve their life, and it works for them. I've only done shrooms twice but it was on top of a mountain doing enough to trip and just enjoying the wind and the milky way, feeling intimate with the other person and nature.