They've been vague about the business. They've always said stuff like "I was doing door to door campaign stuff," and making money through local gigs (and I did meet them through another musician) but the campaign stuff isn't current and local gigs I think are like $50 a gig around here and it's impressive if you get even three a week. Maybe not even that. I tried doing the same thing solo so not splitting a slightly larger amount up in another city up north and got about the same for a small part on the keys down in MA so I know that's not what's paying their rent.

So, they've said "business partner" with someone I've not met after meeting many local musicians, and pay rent in not the cheapest apartment complex in the city, and, not to be tmi, but there's a lot of quality and not much quantity compared to other sexual partners I've had for a prolonged period of time, so that leads me to the "hiding doing porn" thing.

I don't even think that bothers me though. I'm in a "idgaf" state with them right now (okay, with Snuff by Slipknot on repeat), but I've seen this cycle with other partners and I've been frequently roped back in. It's not like I'm obsessing over them a lot, either in a good way or a bad way. I just feel towards them like just about everything else: numb.