Trigger Warning****** (Graphic detail of sexual abuse)

I’m at a loss for what to do. I used to be married and the day before I had this flashback I had been thinking about things my ex husband and I used to do. I received or*l from him. The next morning I had a flash of me receiving or*l but I of course could only see nose up but I got an instant gut feeling that it was my father. I’ve been suspicious of my father for various reasons for many years so that’s always on my mind as well. I guess it is possible I meshed thinking about and remembering what my ex and I used to do with feelings about my dad. I don’t know. Should I trust my gut that it was my dad even though I couldn’t identify his face? Or say I don’t have enough to know. What would you do?