thank you to everyone who has told me i dont need this cosmetic surgery ...i ts very sweet and makes me cry happy tears...

im gonna say something that will be triggering so if you are triggered easy please dont read more....

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one of the procedures im getting done (when money comes) is to repair some damage left behind by sexual abuse that lasted most of my childhood....
i have a hard time with it and i want to make the visual reminders dissapear.
and my body has been ridiculed most my life by the abuser so much that i cant stand looking at myself naked.
so i just need it for myself, so i can feel comfortable in my own skin... only then can i go out confidently and get a man. (i know this info probably belongs in the abuse survivor forum but when i made the thread i didnt think id go into detail on my reasoning...)
but the self esteem totally interferes with relationships...
um, if the moderators wanna move this thread id be perfectly fine with that...
sometimes its just hard to know where these things go when they touch on so many issues.