Not the healthiest way probably, but dissociation is my best friend for feeling things.

Maybe apologize, in writing if you think they'd take that more seriously and you'd have more time to think it out, to anyone you've hurt. And write yourself an apology letter with some affirmations to not be so hard on yourself. Stuff like "you weren't in your normal state, not your fault, you're a good person when your disorder isn't affecting your actions," etc.