Today has already been so unhealthy. I've had nothing to drink except coffee, ate a slice of pizza which eventually got flushed down the toilet, and I am definitely back to dehydration and probably whacked electrolytes too. The time before the last time I saw my CM I said I was seriously going to get my shyt together and make good, healthy choices. I went a total of a day of not making any poor decisions and even made some small good decisions (that were kinda just the absence of bad decisions I'd normally make).

I feel like I'm doing okay though. Not sure if it's denial or just my standards for my personal mental health are so low that shyt is good compared to the rest of the time.

Put an ad on Craigslist for music lessons. I don't even have access to a guitar right now (or a keyboard for that matter). I have a plan though. Kind of afraid of having some income, but not enough to pay for rent or anything, but having enough to pay for binge food and whatever substances.