I was recently diagnosed after a full blown manic episode but am really curious about an event that occurred in the winter. Firstly I suffer from extreme social anxiety but am normally a deans list student. find it very distressing to know my work is not done or not high quality and often struggle to do anything "fun" until work is to my standard. One nigh I was caught sm*king in my room and the experience of being utterly humiliated, having my room searched and getting a ticket messed me up bad. I did not eat or leave my room or bed for the next few days. it was horrible felt so guilty. I am not sure if what happend next was gradual or sudden but my attenton essentially shifted in an extreme way. Normally I can only play video games for 45 minutes top without getting bored.

but during this literally could not stop. I was getting maybe 3 hours of sleep at best, was oddly very wired- very- but was not happy in the least. instead.have been described as very flat during this period. I did not do a single minute of work for the week and half this : episode"lasted. towards the end had begun making poor choices. I did not tell my doctor until it was too late. eventually i slipped into a deep depression and had to take a leave of absence and my grades took a huge hit.

was this a warning about the manic epsiode that would occur? could i have avoided the manic episode had i told anyone. if you have any insight please respond, this keeps me up at night often