I am on a waitlist. A very long waitlist indeed.

In the past I haven't been super honest with therapists because when I am they've always either totally invalidated any concerns until it got to the point of obviously needing hospitalization. Maybe I just suck at making concerns sound concerning. I used to have a tendency to turn everything into a (dark, sick) joke. I haven't done that so far with new T. I just kinda got slapped in the face with some "maybe...just maybe, a bipolar episode is looming around the corner" thoughts yesterday so I haven't really had a chance to bring this active concern up yet.