I don't like sobriety. I'm not sober right now, and it is wayyy better than before. I seriously do not know how to have a will to live when I'm straight. I meant to go to the ticket to work voc rehab zoom thing, but I missed it. Next is on the 11th. I think my zoom name is still "Flume God." Even if I get a job, I'll be homeless unless I get a roommate (ayyy, another person we can stress each other out) or get like a $23/hr ft job and a really shytty apartment.

The world is being a slave. A slave to a job, a landlord, chemicals/other addiction, a partner, the government, any authority really, God, whatever dysfunction goefs on in your head, the list goes on... right now I feel free. I'm not, but at least there's an illusion that I'm not stuck in a cage catering to others' wants and needs.

I guess I will stop talking to people though.