Angel, there's a prayer said (not sure if you're religious) by many in AA and NA programs It's not the religious aspect I'm trying to get across, but more the message. "God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference." I've never found changing the things I can change in my life to be difficult. I have a very hard time trying to accept what I can't change... like the things I've had to endure throughout my entire life. I can't change them but I want to so badly. One of the things that no med will fix is our situation in life. I'm praying that through therapy I will learn the skills needed to deal with my life as it is. It's definately not easy and I hope that you will be able to learn these things as well. My situation gets me down almost on a daily basis and I don't know how to change it, or if I even can. I feel for you and I hope that soon these dark clouds part and you can see the sun again. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Ryan