At our last "girlfriends' club" (small group of 6-8 professional women who happen to be hetero) meeting (we sit around and eat and drink and talk and laugh) many of us admitted that we are often attracted to females, not really sexually, but emotionally, nonetheless. Women and men possess different qualities and there's nothing unusual about admiring them.
Mouse and Chaotic, I wish you could get over the shame feelings. I know how awful they can be. I was conditioned to believe homosexuality was a mortal sin and managed to let that go a long time ago, but there is still shame associated with sex period. I'm so impressed by how open you are with your T, mouse. Jealous, I guess!