I guess I blacked out and talked to my CM in the meantime because at 3:30ish I got up from the couch and saw a note saying "show up at 4:30!" which wasn't awful but they seriously want me to slow down a bit. Not jump into bed with everyone. Not do the polysubstance thing (or any substance abuse thing for that matter). Take a break from triggering people and places. Just chill and rest.