Hello, so to give a little quick background, i am born with a heart defect and had three open heart surgeries so far. And this year at my annual appointment with my cardiologist he saw that my heart is not doing as well as excpected. He did say that it was not catastrophic and that he just wants to keep an eye on it and that is why i have to see him in six months instead of in a year.

But i just cannot stop thinking and panicking about it. I have this feeling that i'm running out of time and i am so scared. I knew that i was going to have hard days with this, between anxiety and ptsd, but i can't seem to calm down and focus my mind on something else. I just can't stop thinking about it everyday and it's ruining my days.