I have Centrelink payments so the problem isn't money at the moment. I'm going back to study but that's not the issue either what the problem is I feel numb and uninspired and pessimistic for my future. My concern for working but it is much deeper for I don't feel a connection to anything a purpose to ground me to the earth. All those things that people need like love and care friendship. All those things that are missing for my heart. My heart empty and lonely. All that stuff with getting disability payments is already being sorted out and the NDIS so that's not the issue that bothers me the most. I'm perplexed as to what I would need to give me a purpose and the happiness that I've been searching my whole life.