Did y'all know people pleasing is a manipulation tactic? I didn't, but it makes sense. Everybody fking knows I'm an evil, unstable, manipulative bytch who hurt every single person I come across intentionally. So I'm going to do better, and I'm first going to stop being a people-pleaser and forcing others to think I'm not a POS. Just going to call everybody a d**khead or c**t and hope someone gets straight up angry and murders me instead of gets their feelings hurt from me saying I like their cooking and next time they cook I say I don't want to sleep with them right after.

I'm going to get some cats, ***** those p*ssies out for money, and make them pay rent so I have a place to live (felines, joke).

Spaghetti and guilt for breakfast goes well with absinth, probably won't even taste the guilt. Maybe not the spaghetti either. Do not worry. I told people that trust me with their vehicle to just assume I'm going to be above .08BAC until fall and not to give me their keys.

Pretty sure alcoholism makes me do more fked up shyt to people than whatever the fk the general population is scared people with BPD will do to them. Alcoholics make people angry when they do something because of their alcoholism. When people with BPD aren't perfect 100% of the time and slip and do their BPDing, it makes them sad. Anger is easier to deal with for most. And then when the manic episode kicks in with this other crap, people are fking scared for everybody's safety. Handcuff her to the bed. She's into that. Just don't have a safe word and "lose" the key