@TheGal

thank you so much for your reply.
I know i'm definitely catastophizing ! and it's hard to stop ^^

I see him in november and i'm terrified about it. He already said that it is no catasrophic but my mind cannot stop spiraling

And thank you so much for sharing those meditations and that website, i'm definitely gonna check it out! Mediating has been helping me a little bit, and i'm gonna try that visualisation technique you suggested! . Thank you again for your reply! i really appreciate it!