Thank you very much for your messages and tips

Yes i gotta start small and in the morning, i guess it motivates me to see a finished room, problem is there is always something else to do
For example i could clean the kitchen but it will still look kinda bad since the furniture has been damaged through the years (and I cant buy a new one now), or there are some kitchen device broken and got to take it to waste point

By the way, thank you so much. The overwhelming feeling is taking me down more than usual