...when you're still getting to know each other?

My first appointment was pretty much crisis management and safety planning. I told her my goals were to...I don't remember. I feel like they should be become more hopeful and get motivated and see a reason to plan for a future.

Anyways, my T knows me well enough to say "this is definitely something Sam would show us" after I printed out a picture from the internet of a cosine wave where a positive value was "horny" and a negative value was "suicidal."

But I feel like there are things I should tell her now after a few sessions that might actually help her beyond my main feelings being wanting sex and wanting to die alternating every five minutes.

I'm going to write shyt down while I am alone and don't feel pressured into saying something I don't think. I may end up going into next session with four pages of dark humor and she'll say I'm coping well and I'll graduate.