Thanks. Yes i do have a laundry machine, and i am washing a lot of clothes in order to save some and give them to charity
I can handle only few clothes and max 2/3 pair of shoes, i lost myself when I have too many objects around

I live in a medium size city in Europe, my balcony faces the street and sometimes i feel uncomfortable exposing myself out when hanging the clothes to let them dry
My neighborhood has some criminality score too (not too problematic, but not too safe either)

By the way, thanks again to everyone who answered

I feel a bit empty due to having been for a long time and honestly it is more about "fixing little thing" than having some hope and better outlook