((((Dolphfan))))

I am so sorry your are going through such a hard time. It sounds like you're at your wits end...

It's a matter of finding solutions to your problems... identifying each problem first, then putting a plan in place.

You need someone to help you through the process. Do you have a psychologist? Therapist and social worker?

Also there are online Zoom meetings for bipolar, here: DBSA - Depression and Bipolar Support Alliance

You may also want to check out HeyPeers.com for additional support and resources...

Also, CoDA.org might be worth looking into...