Lost, I saw something somewhere regarding our loved ones' death anniversary dates and it was like "Try not to reduce someone's life to their death". So the premise was to remember someone's LIFE on the anniversary days, thereby hopefully bringing up some positive memories. I'm sure you have some positive memories of your friend. Try to celebrate and focus on those if you can.

I know it can be hard, especially with suicide- but I have lots of experience with this and I've found it's very helpful to remember those I've lost to suicide by focusing on their gifts to the world and positive memories we may have shared.

We will all die but our actual death is the least interesting thing about us. It's our life that mattered, no matter how short or how long it was, or how it ended.