I am dealing with a bad personal situation and feel very ashamed when going out of the house
I do my best to look put together but am not. Currently overweight (on a diet and trying to exercise) I have to look very anonymous, wearing black pants and black or grey jacket, with sneackers, "very standard and normal", cause I don't want to be bothered. I've been working from home for a while, i am a super alone woman but it is not a problem it ended up like that, since I had social disorders in the past and can't handle it anymore. I mostly try to take care of my relatives
I am a weirdo, failure, lost all my friends but currently i am trying just to survive.

I needed to vent, now I am going out
Problem is any person can read the level of trash my life reached, while i just wish this to end. Not only i feel exposed but also genuinely guilty for what I have become

Hate to sound like the "emo kid", I have an age and learnt my lessons. Still sometimes it is taugh