You are not bad, you don't suck and you are not yucky either and who ever told you those cruel things was so very wrong to do so. I know because I heard it all too and now every day it replays in my head. I have to tell myself all the time how wrong they were, and are. That's why I call myself "valuable1" here. Because it's a constant reminder that I am "valuable". I'm sending you hugs if you want them.