Your kappa opioid receptors are agonized, dynorphin (Opposite of endorphins) increase with THC with certain people (Like me) who have been through trauma etc.

Making Sense of Madness: Stress-Induced Hallucinogenesis – qwerky science

If you really need help, make sure that you are safe, then hospital would be best. We care about you BB, and hope you get better soon (:

You will get better with a bit of time.