I've got some paranoia going on tonight. Of all of the hypomanic symptoms I experience, this one is definitely my least favorite. It's times like this that make me use I still was on Seroquel to help me sleep but, for my own safety when in a bad depressive episode, it's best that I'm not. The horrible drowsiness I got from it was also not worth it.

Counseling went well today. I'm kind of at a stand still with processing things until I can learn how to cope with the emotions that are starting to come up with the processing. I spent most of my life not feeling them so, not what I am, I have no idea what to do with them.