I received a call from the treatment center I decided on today. While I was in the hospital, they told me it'd be a four-week wait once I was discharged. That happened on Saturday. Today, they told me the wait would be 6-8 weeks. I expect in 6 weeks they'll call me to tell me it'll actually be 12-14 weeks. Then a few weeks after that, 20-24 weeks. And after that, who knows? The endless extensions on wait times has me feeling very dejected and hopeless. I am starting to experience some dark thoughts again. Except I can't admit it to anyone because I won't be confined to the hospital again. I won't allow it. I either struggle through this or I die. There are no other options. I have nothing and no one.