I notice i am not really lazy, i do things, i like to clean and fix
It is the actually the social part: being seen by neighbours, plus the anxiety i sense when running late
These are not excuses
I am slow but steady, can be a practical person, like to fix things

When alone, i work. But living in a problematic and curious neighborhood brings me down. They do spy as a hobby

Sorry but I have no more place to vent except internet. Thanks again for the replies