Ugh, is it bad to be jealous of those of you who are hypomanic? It makes me want to stop taking Seroquel, but if I do that, I don't sleep, and I really don't function well on too little sleep. And my sex drive is nonexistent, probably thanks to psych meds The past few years when I've gotten hypomanic, I don't really get to enjoy it, it will last a few days (not weeks or months like some of you) and just spiral into full-blown mania and shortly after that, psychosis and then it's back to the psych hospital and, ugh, who really wants that?!

So I have to conclude foregoing Seroquel to enjoy a few days of hypomania (where I'm likely to blow the budget big time which really makes H mad to the point of threatening divorce) just isn't worth it for me, which just doesn't seem fair with stupid bipolar, and I'll get the flipside depression for weeks and months on end which isn't fun at all I really hate the way bipolar manifests in me. Not fair at all.

IDK why I'm jealous of hypomania, right now I'm doing fine emotionally, level I guess is how I'd describe my mood, which is good in bipolar, I guess. It seems to be what my pdoc wants anyway. Sorry for the vent.