I believe in an all-or-nothing notion of a relapse. If you are an alcoholic, drinking any amount is equivalent to playing with a fire that can quickly get out of control. I have two full bars in this home, yet I never drink any for one of three reasons. I drank heavily in the military but quit as soon as I was back home. Next, I watched my father try to self-medicate for years to control his inner demons. The last reason is that I want to think as clearly as possible while I can. I am on so much medication it could be dangerous. No one loves a drink of alcohol as much as I do. I can wipe out most of an entire bottle of Chivas Regal in one day, or I could. I have not done that for 18 years and have no plans to start. No one can answer that question for you but yourself.