@Rose76 - It's so good you had help with cleaning which enabled you to cope better. I've had help come in to lend a hand in the past. Thanks for your message of support.

@16PennyNail - Thank you for your kindness... I know I'm in a very dark spot right now...

A lot of my depression is existential in nature...

Yesterday, I had my first EMDR therapy session, and it tired me out as it brought up a lot. But, I'm giving it a shot.