Hey couch well I'm ready to share this and actually leave the post up this time . I tried twice before but deleted them . I think I'm ready now. So, my much-too-long saga with L has officially come to an end, as of 3 weeks ago today. Well my last session was in mid-February, when she said a couple of things that led me to cancel and tell her I needed a break which had been open-ended. But I talked to her on the phone 3 weeks ago and told her it's permanent, that I'm not coming back. It was a pleasant enough conversation, I am relieved that it is finally over, and I (still) feel like I escaped from a cult. I never should have gone back the first time I left. But it's all water under the proverbial bridge now because I am free. I didn't see just how unhealthy that relationship had become for me until after I got out.

Thank you all so much for putting up with my struggles with her over the years.