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Originally Posted by MuddyBoots
Have you tried any opposite actions? Such as not listening to love songs, looking at pictures of someone you refer as a "sex God" at an almost equal amount as "my husband," or writing about him (I'm willing to bet some, if not all, of that is "spicy")? Doing stuff that generally turns people off like cold showers or whatever your personal turn-offs are?
You could direct that sexual energy in a more creative way. Come up with some sort of project that won't make you focus on your husband and his dcck and immerse yourself in it.
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Thank you for the suggestions. I'll try distracting myself today. I can't handle the thought of another long day of longing and unrelenting anguish, so I've been trying to drug myself to sleep with my prn seroquel (just taking 100mg at a time. Not a lot. This won't be another gabapentin situation.).
My friend was texting me pics of really gross looking people to try and turn me off. Lol! It was so funny. It didn't work because all I could STILL think of was my husband half naked when he got up this morning (looking fine!). And he let me touch his knee this morning (after I promised him I wasn't going to try getting on him). ❤️ 😍
I'm going to try looking at things that gross me out today and distracting myself by watching stupid shyt on YouTube or something. Hopefully it'll make the day bearable.
My stupid therapist asked me if I could, you know, myself, and I said no because it wouldn't be the same and I can't watch porn because it would be gross AND it would be disrespecting HIM. Only the GOD OF LOVE ❤️ can satisfy me. Hopefully Tuesday night. He decides.